Thoughts of a Wrestling Teen
”Recently I’ve been working through doubts in my faith. I guess I know that most Christians go through this but it’s still so tough. For some reason I just keep thinking that God isn’t real or that I can’t really know Him. Maybe it’s just more of doubt in His ability to restore. I know that He’s supposed to have power to totally fix our jacked up minds and hearts but I’m just not seeing it happen. I’m not putting much work into my relationship with God either maybe that’s why I’m not feeling God as much. I’m not putting my relationship wih Him as my number 1 priority. I’ve heard that my relationship with Him is just like a relationship with a friend or girl or anyone else. You have to put time and energy into growing that relationship. You have to give up other things that you value to do things for that person. That’s something I’m not doing very well. I guess if I spend more time praying and reading my Bible I would feel closer to God and have less doubt but Satan keeps shooting those flaming darts of doubt even when God has probably sent me so many signs and reasons to believe. I know so many examples and so much evidence for God that I know He has to exist but the doubt and lack of faith just makes me depressed sometimes. I wish I would just be totally new and refreshed like when I was a kid and had pure undoubting faith. I guess it’s just a process of renewal and I need some more accountability for spending time in the Bible and someone to be honest with about doubts. ”
-Wrestling, Male-Age 16
